Crystal love

Parent Star: HD 222582 (G5 V) in the constellation of Aquarius is located at a distance of 136.98 Light Years from our Solar system. Co-ordinates of Right Ascension: 23 41 51.5299 & Declination: -05 59 08.726. The apparent Magnitude of the star is 7.7. The Inner Edge of Habitability Zone is 0.58 AU & the Outer Edge of Habitability Zone: 1.82 AU and the estimated stellar lifespan of the star is 10000 million years. Orbiting around HD 93083 is planet HD 222582 b the planet is believed to be a Water Cloud Jovian, Eccentric and its existence has been confirmed. The planets appearance is White water ice clouds. The planet is positioned is at Earthlike Temperatures within the habitability zone at mean orbital distance of 1.35 AU and the estimated radius of the planet is 1.036 Jupiter's 1. The planet Orbits around the star every 572 Days and was discovered by Marcy et al in 1999.

05-01-2010
Star-ing at this page, that I thought was empty. It contains data. But it doesn't discribe the magnificence of the multiverse. Water Cloud Jovian sounds like nice words. Eccentric is also a nice word. Magnitude. Habitability.

But it isn't Superpokepets. Joking. I got this book today about the evolution of the universe. Have been scanning the net about movies all day. And almost all are swirling around quantum technology, quantum scientific universe stuff, dancing with multidimensionality.
I thought it would be cool to check out some stargalaxy's where I live(d) but than it's just a silly concept to believe that it can be found in the stars that we perceive as real. I believe it's more like a metaphor for something we can't grasp. Can we really grasp the existence of multiple realities? We try to conceptualize it, to give it names like angels, entities, beings, multidimensionality, but none of it grasps the bigger picture. It all are tiny pieces of a big big happening, that can't be understood by our mind, but can be felt with our energetic strands of DNA. (or something) cause DNA is also just a concept. Strings, activations. It's like food for the mind, to be able to grasp that there are things happening in all our energetic multidimensional bodies, collection of molecules, that we consider to be in service to a single soul, or piece of one.

I've been thinking about this. Or feeling about it. About how to get the most coins a day with superpokepets (facebook game) Joking again. No, about which molecules we consider to be our children, where we take care of. Which we define as soul, or energybody, no matter in what dimension. What we would call our individuality. In a way there is so much to unravel at the moment. To sink in. Not to get answers to the secret of the universe. Cause we have them. There is nothing to understand, to learn, teach and bladiebla there goes the entire riddle again.

Star hundred and something. Yes. The images in my book show colorful pics of great galaxy's, dead stars, baby's. About bubbles of gas. It tells about the always expanding universe. I saw a movie about Einstein and time-space. About how our bodies recreate a 3d reality in a 5d.

That made me wonder about my own writings. I always write that the whole dimensionthing is no use of labeling. I wonder why o why do I write those stuff, leaving me with no clues, except the highest perception: love. It's like come on, just give me something to unravel, to be able to grasp, to tell about. But than it always end with the fact that we are free souls, in a free universe, enjoy the game and good night. In contrary to a good conspiracy it gives comfort. But can we really go to bed and feel oke? When the world is on fire and people kill each other? Yes, yes Mirri we can. Cause that's just not my reality. War is not in my dimension. How irreverent. Well. Not really. Cause the game of war needs to be honored. As we all played that game or will play it, or maybe still are playing it.
Sometimes I wished I was an activist by heart. But nope, no matter what the labels are saying, ;-) I'm not. I don't think action or changing the world is my path. It doesn't need force. My soul, and thereby my perception of what the world 'needs' is: Love. Simple that. Simple in all it's complex facets.

If I could share one thing with the molecules in this world and all dimensions it would be honor, unity, grace. I would share that everything is as it should be, that it's amazing, wonderful and great. That in our darkness lies our divinity. That every expression needs to be seen, honored. That evolution, change, is a natural process, that happens by honoring yourself as great divine being, as the lowest of the lowest if that is what you belief.

And I thought about that, would I be so unaware of everything that I even think pain is beauty? Am I so indoctrinated with the mass consciousness? Am I under mind control? (I know.. I watched to many conspiracy movies. LOL) Maybe. I believe not. Maybe, perhaps maybe, if you walk this road with me, it takes courage to see beauty and it takes huge grace to feel the universal love in the most terrifying horror.

And a horrifying experience it has been, this and past lifetimes. Words can't describe the immense darkness of being lost on all levels of your being. Trapped in psychotic dimensions that expand the darkness in every molecule. As if every sense is controlled by the scariest ugly energy you can imagine, only increasing pain with every breath and second. Imagine that every breath brings you closer to more pain, madness, craziness, not just on one dimension. Where even angels have turned into devils, and running away in other realities is no option, as they hunt you down with their black swirls, hurting you on levels you didn't knew you existed on.
It's not just an exercise in positive thinking. Which is pretty useless when you don't really feel the energy of love inside your veins. Sometimes cursing and yelling around is more healing than affirmations ;-) But that's an entire different story for another time.

I know that I am considered rude by some. As if I dishonor everything holy. It's not my purpose to do that. It's just something that naturally happens, as I honor every molecule. It's like unity want to show itself, by telling all is one.

There is also a big voice inside of me that wants to tell about what happens when we don't feel safe as multidimensional beings. Not even for myself. But for all the friends I lost along the way. Multidimensionality, being a child-teen, being of the new earth is not just hallelujah. We hear this great things about indigo and crystal children. People write books about it to create another concept around it, and to in my eyes, sometimes, (exceptions excluded) fuck it up. Sorry for the fuck, but it needs to be said.

It's not only a loving great thing. It can be hard, difficult, fucked up to be born in a world that doesn't get you at all. That you are born with wisdom that you can't even express in a human body. That people treat you like you are stupid just because you are a child and have not the right age to them. That even being 4 years old you realize that the world people live in and create is a fake one. And you wonder why people don't just say what they feel and think. It's not fun at all to feel what others feel and to know what they think at most moments, when they are lying on every level. Not because they want to, just because they are unaware of it. And than I'm not talking about the multidimensionality, the other worlds, beings, angels and et's you communicate with it, so naturally, that it doesn't need a name, frame, concept. Even writing this makes me sad.

I realized today that I always needed to work so hard to fit in society. At school I was always tired. It was so much work to conform to social codes and rules I didn't understand. I tried to hide my light, as I found out it scared other children and the teachers. So I squeezed myself to be normal. Which never worked of course. I pretended to not know things, and I developed weird techniques in writing, reading, mathematics to keep it interesting for me. I read books upsidedown, backwards I realized today. Never was aware of that.
There are so many things to this, that I'm still founding out every day. My biggest secret for a long time was, and maybe still is, and it still makes me afraid like hell, is that I'm actually very smart, wahaaa. which is maybe to ego to say bout yourself. But can't hide myself anymore. It scares me like hell to say it. I did an iq test when I was 21 because I was studying for teacher on a primary school and I recognized some symptoms. So I did research on this mensa thing, and stuff and did an official test. And I'm not going to share my iq, cause it makes me sweatty even writing about it. But I cried for weeks, for being so much out of the normal standards. I got over it. (a bit) lol. Still working on shining my light 100%

And when we keep hyping the crystal children thing it doesn't do them any good. It creates awareness. But I say: rather no awareness, than this adoration, pedestal thing. A child really doesn't want it's parent to think s he is the messiahs. That is a burden nobody needs to be born with. And even saying that indigo children are here to change paradigms and stuff, is sometimes not appropriate. It depends on the context and situation. Know your audience, cause some people take this a little to serious, and put again a burden of being a messiahs on us, on children, teens, young adults. I'm not here to safe anyone, to change anything, as nothing needs to change and is perfect as it is.
It's really hilarious sometimes when people ask me: are you an indigo, and than look in their eyes and feel the whole adoration thing around it. It's more sad than hilarious. Cause I don't want to be treated different. I don't need that, and it's a big statement of distrust in yourself when you do it with that energy. Your soul deserves better. The whole higher-lower vibration thinking is not needed, useless when we step into the 5th , 3780 dimension and in triality, fourtality, fiftality etc. :-D Unity consciousness knocks on our doors. It's here, there everywhere.

When you look on the net and search for info, it's really hilarious and sad at the same time. There are a couple of integer channels. Steve Rother always put it in the right context. Lee Carrol does. But for the rest it takes on loops you can't imagine. I don't resonate with most movies on youtube. There's something for everyone. I honor every creation.

I think sometimes that the whole indigo-crystal thing is something for the parents. So that they have a concept they can understand. It's not here for the children, teens and young adults. I don't need a label, a name. I am free. We know it in our hearts. I use the label sometimes, to label it, as we live in a world of tags. But I do it sometimes with pain in my heart, knowing that it never tells the entire story, it never covers the whole thing. It's always, a tiny part of a limited perception in a certain dimension. But it's a part of my perception, that makes is special for me. That's all I have, that I can share.

I wrote stuff like this before, and most of it is unpublished. Because of the emotions it gives me, as it is a piece that lies close to my heart. Maybe afraid for ridicule, for people to not understand it, for it to be not good enough. One thing I know for sure is that I can't hide my light. I know it will look different for everyone. Dark maybe for some, as it often does. But it's me. It's all I have. And I can't hide it anymore. So here it is: My love, to you.

With love,
Mirri

This following chapter is quoted from the book The Indigo Children- Ten years later by Lee Caroll and Jan Tober. You can get it here on Amazon.

It's probably copyrighted, but with the source included I think everyone is oke with it, and if not, let me know. :-)

I quoted this cause Kaisheen was much more articulate in English, than I ever will be. She was, cause she decided to leave her body. She could sing in an amazing way. It must be red with compassion for her perspective. I know there is love, and that love heals all wounds. Let her transformation be a lesson and a gift. It doesn't need to happen again, although she gave us a great gift with her passing. She created awareness, not just with her family, friends, but throughout the globe with her writings. It was her choice to leave her body, and maybe one of the most important she ever made. We can create a safe space for the indigo, crystal children, teens and adults. How? I dedicated myself to BE safe space where ever I go. Do we really listen? Can we create the safe space for ourselves? Live in our passion any moment. What if the key to all of this, would be to live your own life to the fullest? Do you take that challenge? Beyond the labels there is self love. Love for your own inner child, that craves for recognition, love, acceptance, embracement. Let this be a chance for love. A moment in time, in where you take your own power as sovereign being, that will be recorded as one of the most important happenings in your experience as soul.

Read more about Kaisheen and my experiences with her in my articles: (can be found in article section)
The joy of death and the sadness april 2008
Connection of humanity, depression and the gift june 2009

"A Message from
Indigo Children to Adults
Across the World

by Kaisheen Wong

On November 18, 2007, Kaisheen Wong passed away at the age of
20. She was very ready to let us know what it was like to be Indigo and
what we might do to help. She wished to represent the Indigo population (a
very Indigo thing). There was frustration here, or at least past frustration.
And the source? It is what the educators have all told you: recognition.

I’ve submitted this written text because I think it’s highly rel-
evant to your book: setting the record straight on Indigos. I think
that I have something valuable to offer because many individuals,
even the ones working with us, are still misunderstanding what I,
an indigo Child, am experiencing . . . what I really feel and what I
really want.
Here's a message from Indigo Children to adults across the
world: · ·

“The best way that you can help us, truly, is to fully find
your own spirituality, love yourself. discover the joy that’s in
 your life, and uncover the peace in the center of your being that
  you know is always there and has never left you. Until you’ve
  found your spiritual roots, your own center of love for yourself
  and your mature and steady calmness, you can’t help us, nor
  can you guide us to our missions.

We’re not here to learn your lessons for you, but to bring
a piece of Earth's heaven. We hope that it may set fire to your
hearts and conyirm so much of what you’ve believed but have
been afraid to assert in complete confidence. This will happen
when you see us for who we are and feel our love. We’re here
_ already with you on this gorgeous earth! We’re waiting for you
with much love and patience. Some of us have chosen to experi-
ment with meeting you halfway: that is, to set down our mis-
sions for the time being and embark on a journey of becoming
one of you, so that as you move toward us, we move toward you
at the same time. We know you try to help. We love you for this
reason, and many others! Please, listen to us first——not to our
words, which reflect back to you what you’re supposing———but to
our efforts, and to our intent. “

· —— The Indigo Children

I'm a 19—year-old Indigo Child. I've avidly devoured The Indigo
Children by Lee Carroll and Jan Tober and have also given it to my
  parents. It has had no effect whatsoever besides scaring them and
making them feel as though I've gone off the edge and lost my
 ability to concentrate on my future. l’ve also recommended the book to my counselors. Their reaction is to refuse to read it. They
insist that I'm suffering from depression and that it’s the depression that’s making me seek reasons for why l'm the way I am. This
is unbearably frustrating, but I do have compassion for them. I
know it’s difficult to understand these things and find acceptance
since they’ve never heard of the ideas before. I also have compas—
sion for the people I meet on the Internet who are on spiritual
quests and who think they understand me but aren’t there yet. It’s
very, very difficult, I*m sure.
I'm aware that I know things that other people don’t know.
However, it's tough to share because people don't understand.
I’m also so frustrated that there’s so much information available
on how to care for Indigos—tips for the parents and teachers of
Indigos-—and so little information for the Indigos themselves.

I want information that actually speaks directly to the children and
teenagers about their spiritual purpose, their well-being, and what
they can do to help society. I'm upset that so little of what’s writ-
ten speaks directly to me about what I'm here to do. I’m so tired
of suffering and of people telling me what I should be doing ·for
example, not suffering! They haven't got a clue. They need to see
who and what I am, then they wouldn"t dare treat me like this.
And I’m so irritated when people accuse me of always thinking
others misunderstand me because people don’t misunderstand
me; they both understand and misunderstand me at the same
time. Where’s the guidance?
I’ve been spending a lot of time with spiritual adults, trying to
get them to see that part of what they’re here for is to do what's
really in their hearts, to offer to us new children the guidance that's
in God’s heart to give. This isn’t because we need to be guided, but
because it’s an expression of God’s greatest love; and since we’re all
made from God, we can all participate in this. I hate it that I’m so
smothered that I can barely feel my essence anymore, and I hate
that I know others who are also feeling so terrible. I hate it when
people say, “Take care of yourself; put yourself first ahead of all _
  else. That way you won’t have to suffer the way you are. Don’t let
yourself be smothered. There are methods you can use . . .” and on
  and on. Yes, I know that! I am taking care of myself, but they can’t
  see it. They think I don’t know what l’m doing, and then they try
  to cram their smothering advice on me. Oh, my God. Where is the
  relief from this horrible experience?
  In summary, I’m feeling extremely suffocated by humanity
  because most of it can’t ”see” me and seems to be trying to give
  me advice all the time. I dislike this because I already know what
  they’re telling me. In fact, I can already predict what they say
  before it occurs to them!
  Thus, I don’t need people to tell me what to do. What would I
  like? I'd like to be able to breathe. That's what I'd like the most. In
  addition, I’d like spiritual adults who are capable of understanding
  “far out" things to stop suppressing me and to listen to me. I know
  that’s what they want to do, but somehow they aren’t doing it yet.

Perhaps they aren’t even aware of the level of suppression they’re exerting on me. It’s such gross inhumanity that l'm suffering due to this situation and have no one to hear or understand!
I’d like these adults to see me. They can do so by quieting down and listening to my voice. If they're occupied in projecting their own difficulties onto my situation, they won’t be able to hear me,
and consequently, they won't see me. Therefore, the two things I want right now the most are: (1) to experience a decent and healthy feeling of breathing, and (2) to feel the human warmth that comes with human contact. This second is really a bare minimum, and I long for it so very much. I do suspect that maybe the other lndigos I’ve talked to are feeling similar to me for these same reasons.
I'm sure some people would like to know what Indigos are dreaming of these clays, too. As a young human being of the 21st century, I do dream of great things, including many of the common ideals people have dreamed of forever and ever. Why? Because it's human to desire them!

 For example,

I have the dream of a peaceful planet; of nations loving and accepting each other; of no more racism; of a clean environment in harmony with nature; of helping those suffering with selfmisery, self-hatred, and depression; of resolving conflicts in human thought, philosophy, and behavior.

People don’t need to ask me what I want; they only have to ask themselves, and they’ll know. My dream is your dream, and yours is also mine. We’re dreaming the eternal dream of God.

Like to read Kaisheen's unfinished book? Read Starforest, an unfinished story here

06-01-2010
After some sleep, I woke up this morning. It's a cold day.
In intuitively went to the Divine Cosmos site. Where I found this article in an instant, which relates to yesterday's story so synchronistic.
http://divinecosmos.com/index.php/start-here/articles/214-interview-with-telekinetic-girl

Read the article, or at least a part to understand what I'm talking about.
Mixed emotions here. Tears. Being angry. Dunno. Recognition. The girl is interviewed about her telekinetic abilities by David Wilcock. The date of the transcript is: 11/26/99
I was 15 back than, just like 'Mary'. I had the same experiences. I didn't had a name for it. Didn't knew what it was, that is was called this way. I knew I was unhappy, holding on to the visions I had, of a world in where everyone would feel one. I knew I could make a difference, as I wrote to myself in what appears to be channelings right now. Have closets full from when I was 12 and the collection is still growing everyday.

What hits me right away in the transcript, is the tone. As if there is need for proof. If we really want to understand the new world, is that the whole scientific approach needs to leave. Please, please do not think 'telekinesis' is special. Everyone can do it. Again, the context is so so so so important when we want the indigo and crystal children to be able to speak. I create my own context now. I am really really cautious about hyping crystal and indigo children, teens- adults. It takes courage from David Wilcock to put this on his site. As he is one of us all. Paving the way, for our own empowerment, so that if we looked for it, we could have a reference, a mirror, a flavor of ice.

In a world where there are no secrets we should be able to talk about our gifts, abilities in the open. Of course there is a part fear for ridicule and be locked up here. And in a way that is a really founded fear. Many of us have been diagnosed with labels, and are institutionalized. I bless those that are changing the paradigms from the inside, playing the role of client or social worker. And I feel grateful for those that knew to escape. Luckily it's not easy to brainwash us, but after 7 years in mainstream health care, dozens of psychologist, psychiatrist my self confidence and self image regarding my soul, could easily be ruined for ever. One reunion with love is enough to heal it all.

There is a thin line here. Some of us get trapped in the illusions. A linear standard approach only makes us more stuck. We need facilitators, parents, teachers that know about multidimensionality, that don't ridicule things they can't grasp. No meds please. No meds. That is a one way ticket to hell, most of the time. There are exceptions of course, as there is not one road for all. There are alternatives way of healing. Herbs, energy healing, creative expression etc.

Am I afraid for being crazy? Yes. I am. But it's not going to stop me anymore. I have to go through walls inside myself, to write this, that I consider to be my life work. As this is just a small start of it. Why not in Dutch, without typo's and weird grammar structures? Because I simple can't wait to share this with as much people as possible. The simplicity of my English can add strength to it, and it calms down my intellectual mind that would be stuck easily in the language I know inside out: Dutch.

Where to start with the story? Where is it going to unfold to? Dunno, to a big deep breath right now. On some levels I still feel like this young girl, that just got internet on an old pc, looking for an explanation of my visions and experiences online. The net wasn't what it is right now back than. I ended up on a forum for witches, that didn't understood a thing of what I was saying.

I recently discovered that I miss a kind of drama and conspiracy gen, that makes that I don't resonate, (for a part )with the et, ufo movement, mind control, remote viewing, matrixes. I'm not 100% fluffy puffy. I like to talk about real stuff, real emotions, feelings, happenings.
About the many levels of existence that always exist next to each other, as games that interact with each other, but also follow their own evolution.

One of the things that I recognized in the articles is the lightbulb thing. Me and electricity don't go well together. I blow up things wherever I go. I don't pay much attention to it, as it's normal for me that I have to replace my pc every year. Somehow some pieces of the puzzle are attaching to each other right now. When you look at the forks, spoons and knifes at my mothers house, you would see them all bend and with weird shapes. I don't do it on purpose, but they just bend when I hold them.
All kind of stuff happens around me all the time. Over the years I don't see it as an anomaly anymore, although I am aware of my attempts to hide it when I'm with others. I can walk somewhere and things fly of the shells. Annoying when you are just visiting someone, or when you are in a store. In my own house I always see it as a multidimensional part of myself that wants attention. Sometimes an angel, et. What the heck. I can't do everything with concepts like angels, and et's. There is so much more out there, that deserves a name.
I know I'm protected, so it's not something to be afraid of. Yesterday my night lamp of glass suddenly bursted. I didn't mind. I'm used that glass bursts around me. Which is pretty weird when I look at it from a mainstream perception. But this isn't a mainstream perception.

Objects talk to me on a soul level. They have a consciousness, and it's their purpose to service us. It's their greatest wish that we honor them and use them for our best good. How would people react when you say you are channeling the consciousness of a chair, a table? That is so far out of their league sometimes. It has a different level of awareness than souls, but it's all divine universal energy. Every molecule is. All molecules talk on many levels, when we listen. Why is this different than other writings?

Well, as there are many levels of existence, there are also many levels inside myself. All my writings are different. This is the human experience integrated. It's the most beautiful thing
I choose to experience right now. I hear often that the now exists. It would if time-space existed. Everything exists on certain levels. It's all about perception. When all the opposites in the world would fall away, we would experience all that is, in ways that are difficult to imagine. It can only be imagined, by borrowing, combining the experiences that we already had, and have a reference for. It never comes close to the reality behind perceptions. As that is a never ending, always expanding rabbit hole.

Context is essential. The space in where the free structurelessness can float. It asks a lot of linear perception and reality. I understand that. As we always want concepts, frames, references, to click and attach to our own desire to grasp things. To manifest in a shared dimensional reality we can experience with our senses. In this free space of love on all levels, all levels are free. There is the overview that make that all these so called gifts are seen in the shared reality. But from my perspective it's just a tiny, tiny minuscule piece of what the free space really is. There is so much more to be shared. The bath will be created in where it all can free flow.

Let it be, is singing through my earplugs. What's the secret of the universe? Love, always love. As simple as it may sound, it's the most profound answer to anything. Love. It's the base energy of all that is. It's the right of every molecule to breath love, in and out. To experience it in all it's facets.
Even when it looks like all the things that are creating the human experience, are off limits. When your body only wants organic food, social relationships leave. New ones will come, as you be yourself, and create a natural space of resonating vibrations. Every system around you crumbles down, as it doesn't fit in your reality anymore. There is love. Always.

You are not alone.